final graduation project masters
np3, groningen
july 5-11 2013

The final graduation of my Masters program, I used to say goodbye to all my previous work to make a restart. Sometimes you have to disconnect with the past to have a future. The project started with several performances that I did in the end of 2012 and in the beginning of 2013. Most of them were broadcast live via an online connection to my website. In the old year for example I spent in bed for 24 hours, my mind ran in circles and I ended my relationship. In the new year I burned all the dresses I ever made for a performance or video, cut my hair short and doused my final thesis with Tony's Chocolonely chocolate. Everything had to go. The registrations of the performances are shown at the graduation exhibition in an interactive video installation, in a chronological order from Day 1 till Day 12. The personal videos were only visible and audible, when the visitor gave his personal attention. The videos and written materials ended so personal, that I decided myself to be part of and to live in my work. During the exhibition period in July 2013 I held my door open. People could come in and visit me to drink tea and eat cookies, while taking a look to the various stages of my work and having a conversation.

There are people who are having spring cleanings, bathing for three hours, taking kickboxing classes, baking pancakes, or standing on rooftops. Some believe that we have to suffer to create. After frustration there will be a solution, maybe expression and new inspiration for the next situation. A way of working with a positive learning process can be a circle of creativity. Life experience and self-knowledge is useful. There is no substantive difference between the artist and the artwork, only the way of representing. By exposing myself, there becomes space for someone else to be vulnerable. To give individual attention is important for having interaction. Personal stories and symbols can be understood on a universal level. There is intimacy but still a detachment, because of the chosen medium or position. Searching for the balance or unbalance between drama and humor plays a role. I do not see a reason for not being present in my work or the context. It was a time of destroying, cleaning, replacing and rebirth. Now I am trying to make the environment my own.


former postoffice, groningen
video registration
february 2013

Actually I had the intention to graduate with my own fashion brand. But in January 2013 I decided to burn my self made dresses, which represented my whole archive of work. In February 2013 I did a homage in honor of HENK, the imaginary fashion brand that can never be realized. With coffee, cake, photos, catwalk music, a book of condolence and an urn with the ashes of the burned dresses. A funeral in a fashionable way.